The saving power of Jesus Christ can transform anyone–never forget that!
This is not what the world tells us. The world tells us if someone is homosexual or transgender, there’s nothing they can do to change, even if they want to. They were made this way for a reason, and it is bigotry to even suggest they seek help, even if they want it.
Kevin, 35, is living proof that this is utterly untrue. Despite a successful career as a drag queen and a seemingly happy and fulfilling life as a gay man, Christ met him where he was and transformed him into His child.
His story begins similarly to so many of those who struggle with sexual identity and gender confusion: with abuse.
“My father was never really around when I was growing up, but when he was, he was very verbally, physically, and at times, sexually abusive,” Kevin writes. “He said it was his way of teaching me how to be a man.”
Learning how to be a man was something Kevin would always struggle with, as he was bullied for being feminine as a child.
“I really hated that I was so feminine,” he recalls. “I tried to be more masculine, but to no avail. I did everything from playing sports to wearing biker clothes, and dressing like a cowboy, but none of it was convincing. I really tried everything I could to change, but nothing worked. I was a very lonely boy with no friends.”
When he was a junior in high school, he made his first friend. He was so happy to have a real friend, but then the other boy lured him into the woods and raped him.
“I knew what he did wasn’t right, but I didn’t know what to do,” he says. “We continued to be friends because I didn’t know how to tell anyone what had taken place and I didn’t want to lose the only friend I ever had.”
In high school, he struggled with same-sex attraction which grieved him, but he decided to bit the bullet and tell his family.
“In my mind, my only options were to come out or to commit suicide, but I couldn’t continue to live my life in that state of confusion,” he says. “When I came out of the closet, it was amazing. Suddenly, I had a lot of friends and I was considered a cool kid for the first time in my life. ”
He dove head-first into the gay nightclub scene, performing and earning money. After high school, he began working as a transvestite prostitute, which he found to be quite lucrative. Although his new life seemed exciting and fulfilling, he was drinking heavily to cope with it.
“I was making around $1,000 a day and became addicted to the money,” he says. “It helped to support my now heavy drinking habit and lavish lifestyle. I couldn’t do drag or prostitute without being drunk. I lived my life as a female for years because I felt accepted that way. I was beautiful and people, mainly men, made me feel sexy and wanted.”
While he knew on some level that this lifestyle was unhealthy, as he saw friends succumb to drug and alcohol addiction and the AIDS virus. He began struggling with anxiety. Although he had learned about God from a young age through a family member, he lost faith at this point.
“It was a time when I gave up on God. All I have ever been taught by the church was that gay people are going to hell and their punishment from God was to get AIDS and die,” he says. “So I figured, if I’m going to hell, I might as well have fun doing it! To most people, my outer appearance was that of a very happy person. I was always the life of the party, which is why I was good at being a drag emcee.”
After spending a short time in Florida’s gay show business scene, Kevin was hospitalized with pneumonia which reminded him just how unhealthy his lifestyle was. After returning home to Texas, a friend invited him to church on Easter and he attended just to be kind. However, the message preached that day struck him.
“I saw this modern-day version of the resurrection of Jesus Christ being played out on stage and I began to cry, as I saw all that Jesus had done for me while realizing the lifestyle I was living was not honoring to Jesus,” he recalls. “The preacher asked if anyone was ready to accept Christ, to raise their hands and pray a prayer. I was one of those people. That was the beginning of my walk with Christ.”
He began to turn away from his old lifestyle, having found a new identity in Christ. But as he continued work as a drag queen, he found his old friends were not at all supportive of his newfound beliefs.
“When people started learning about my faith, I was instantly ridiculed and called crazy. Suddenly I was no longer popular and lost all of my friends. The desire to do drag, party, or go to gay clubs became less appealing. God began speaking to me and I got rid of all of my female clothing and accessories,” he says.
During this time, he reached out to Living Hope Ministries, an organization that provides counseling and support to those suffering from same-sex attraction. At first, Kevin feared he would experience judgment and scorn from those helping him through this rough transition, but what he found at Living Hope was nothing but love and compassion.
With their help and through the love of Jesus Christ, Kevin is a new man today! No matter what the world will tell you, there is power in Christ to save, heal, and restore, and that is exactly what He did in Kevin. And now Kevin is using his story to bring glory to God!
“The difficulties I went through in life made me the person I am today,” he says. “God uses everything for His glory and He is using me to share my experiences to help others going through the same things. No sin is too great for Him to handle.”